Help!

[Tumble]

Hi,

I've been diagnosed with type 1 since Sept 08. I'm not sure if it's something that I have really come to terms with yet. I have always been a worrier regarding my weight and if I put a couple of pounds on then I go on shut down and stop taking any insulin altogether and starve myself until the weight drops off. I know I'm doing damage in the long run but the now seems more important to me.
My partner is at his wits end and I am in danger of losing him if I carry on. I even pretend to inject myself when he is around so he thinks that I am doing it correctly.
I've been on a DAFNE course so I know how to control my diabetes but the weight gain has really effected my confidence.
I don't know who to go to for help. My doctor seems really uninterested and I have no idea who my diabetic nurses are as I have moved address since being diagnosed. I've not had a check up since 2009.

I apologise if I have angered anybody with what I know is a childish attitude and I know I have to take respoisibilty for my own actions

Is it just me that feels totally lost? I need help as I feel out of control.

 

[Robster65]

Hi Tumble. Welcome 🙂

No one is going to be angered and it's not childish. You've made a brave step in admitting it and are very self aware about your problems and your need for help.

As you know, your diabetes will ite you back sooner or later so it's important to get help. Your GP's attitude is not good enough, so you obviously need to find someone who understands and will help you work through this.

Well done.🙂

Rob

 

[RSVP]

Hi Tumbler

Well done for admitting there is a problem. That's a huge step 🙂

Have you tried keeping a record of what your eating? Sometimes the mind is evil in the way it plays tricks. Once that thought enters your brain there is very little that can be done to suppress it. But writing it down does help, you can actually see on paper what is being eaten it can help.

There is a website specially for peeps with eating disorders and diabetes which may be of some use to you.

http://www.diabetessupport.co.uk/boards/showthread.php?t=18762

Really hope that you can get some help. I have some knowledge of e/d's although not from a diabetic point of view. If I can help 🙂

Take Care

Sarah x

 

[HOBIE]

Hi Tumble i can relate to how you feel ! The only time i lose weight is when i am ill and out of control (i am not over weight). All my life when ive been high bg i have gone for a walk or out on bike and my be thats why i am a reasnable "shape". Beeing t1 is a weird experience and hard to sort at times but i and many others want to help ! Realy hope you can sort this out with the right people.🙂

 

[shiv]

Hi Tumble, welcome to the forum, sorry to hear you are going through this.

Definitely get in touch with DWED (Diabetics With Eating Disorders) - I know a couple of the ladies that run it and they are amazingly lovely and go beyond their call of duty to support people, they really are fantastic.

 

[Northerner]

Hi Tumble, welcome to the forum, sorry to hear you are going through this.

Definitely get in touch with DWED (Diabetics With Eating Disorders) - I know a couple of the ladies that run it and they are amazingly lovely and go beyond their call of duty to support people, they really are fantastic.

Can't agree more 🙂 Tumble, you've already taken an important step so do get in touch with them. You are not alone and your doctor should be adressing your concerns, not dimissing them. Please feel free to come here and let your feelings out whenever you wish, everyone is very friendly and supportive. 🙂

 

[margie]

Hi Tumble - you are clearly concerned and looking for a way forward. I would take up the suggestions of websites that have been recommended - but I would also goto see my GP and say that you are aware that as a Diabetic you are meant to have a review on at least a yearly basis and you haven't had one since 2009. See if you can get a referral either for a community DSN or for the local hospital clinic. You should then get some help regarding your diabetes.

Good Luck

 

[cherrypie]

Hi,

You need to open up to your Diabetes Team and explain what is going on, easier said than done I know. Posting here means that you are concerned about your long term health.
This is an excellent article which may help,
http://www.diabeteshealth.com/read/2009/03/02/6102/diabulimia-what-it-is-and-how-to-treat-it/

Take care and let us know how you get on, thinking of you.

 

[sasha1]

Hi Tumble,

I cant really add anything to this other that what has already been said.

But I have massive respect for you, in being open, and realising the problem and taking the first steps in tackling the issue.

Heidi
xx

 

[Natalie123]

Hi, I can't add anything myself but just wanted to say well done for finding this forum and taking a step to find some support. I wish you all the best ((hugs))

 

[Tumble]

Since my last post I've been to see my doctor, who I must admit was very apologetic for loosing me in the system. He told me that I should have received help and that he would get me in contact with my local diabetic nurse. He is also going to get me in to have various blood tests and has said that I should have my annual checks around my birthday (how delightful). I'll keep my fingers crossed that this is actually going to happen but will also make sure that if I haven't heard anything in the next two weeks then I will chase him up.
I've spent a lot of time reading various forums over the last couple of days and has found it a great help. I've been inspired to test my blood regulary and my average reading is 6-7 and I am working hard on getting it lower. I've already gained half a stone and although I am freaked out about it I've made a promise to myself that I will continue with my insulin and just up the exercise. Footies starting soon so my partner won't notice too much if I'm not around!!!!

 

[AJLang]

Hi Tumble. It's great to hear you sounding so positive. IIm really pleased to hear that everything is moving in the right direction for you

 

[Robster65]

Hi Tumble. Well done for getting yourself on the road to diabetes control 🙂

Give yourself time to get there and try to share your diabetes and other worries with your partner. If you're still worrying about your weight, it may be something you can with him or someone who has experience of such things.

Communicating is the key.

Stay well.🙂

Rob

 

[tracey w]

Its great news that you are sorting all this! Good luck with it and stay positive 🙂