Defin, well actually what i did was when i got dx'd was i went into autopilot and was like a machine and thought... "this is easy!!" (idiot), i was like..."i can do this!!" and bottled it up and got quite obsessed with testing all the time and trying to hit low numbers to point of hypos ALL the time. It was little OCD.
My diabetic team were concerned i was heading for a melt down and becoming consumed by every little detail and number, i read so much online i freaked myself out. So i went on a WINDFAL course, bit like DAPHNE.
They had the psych dr in one day and i listened to 5 other people that had had diabetes for at least 15 yrs, listening to them talk about DKA's and hospitals and seizures. I was a total mess when it came round to me talking about how i found out i was diabetic (i found out by changing doctors, in my new patients check up, very boring, but thank god!). I was even more freaked out. I then started to get quite upset alot for no reason, Well there was a reason, i was feeling sorry for myself haha 🙄
I've been with the D for 3 yrs now and the last yr i have stopped testing so much to the point of not at all some days and i leave taking insulin for too long or forget, the result is my A1C has gone from 5 to 7.5, in 1 yr, may not seem alot i know. But on diagnosis i went from 12 to 5 in about 2-3months. I have gone completely the other way, i'm kinda having my grieving period now. I have such bad grumpy days but at least i'm feeing something and not bottling it up.
Now i just got to find a good balance. I'm testing every time i eat now and before bed, which is something i would not do before, even after drinking a whole bottle of wine with no food, clever! silly! 😡
its tough. a lot can happen in a yr... what will next yr hold!
so truly feel ya xxxx 🙂