Tomorrow I have my first appointment with a diabetes consultant - even though it's now a year since I became diabetic!
I think I should get my HbA1c result so fingers crossed! I'm hoping it's a reasonable result as my control has been good for quite a while, but the past couple of weeks I've lost the plot and been eating things I shouldn't really (sweets are my downfall!) and even sometimes completely forgot about testing and injecting at mealtimes. I don't know why I'm doing this and sabotaging myself, it's so stupid - am I trying to ignore the fact I have diabetes? I'm sick of feeling bruised and tender on my tum (worse on the thighs) and why does it sometimes hurt so much to prick your finger and then other times you can hardly feel it.
Sorry for the moaning, I'm so fed up of this. With the way it happened that I became diabetic, I was just feeling glad to be alive at first and being diabetic seemed such a small price to pay for that, but as time's passing that feeling's changing and it's starting to hit me that this really is a big thing and it's not going to live with me - I have to live with it.
I think I should get my HbA1c result so fingers crossed! I'm hoping it's a reasonable result as my control has been good for quite a while, but the past couple of weeks I've lost the plot and been eating things I shouldn't really (sweets are my downfall!) and even sometimes completely forgot about testing and injecting at mealtimes. I don't know why I'm doing this and sabotaging myself, it's so stupid - am I trying to ignore the fact I have diabetes? I'm sick of feeling bruised and tender on my tum (worse on the thighs) and why does it sometimes hurt so much to prick your finger and then other times you can hardly feel it.
Sorry for the moaning, I'm so fed up of this. With the way it happened that I became diabetic, I was just feeling glad to be alive at first and being diabetic seemed such a small price to pay for that, but as time's passing that feeling's changing and it's starting to hit me that this really is a big thing and it's not going to live with me - I have to live with it.