Finding it quite tough

[Flower]

I always thought I was quite resilient at coping with stuff after dealing with the complications diabetes has bestowed on me. This mad, weird year has really stopped me in my tracks and I've struggled to be ok not so much physically but more mentally. It all seems to weigh really heavy at present.

My retina clinics have been running and that has been such a relief knowing the bit of sight I have remaining is as ok as it can be but the high risk foot clinic I used to attend every 5/6 weeks has been cancelled since February and I've been living on a wing and a prayer that nothing will go wrong. I started to get a really painful foot under my cast so that I couldn't put pressure on it and managed to get an urgent foot clinic appointment where the skin on my heel had discoloured and was starting to break. My appointment was in the nick of time before I developed a full blown foot ulcer which I'm pretty certain would have led to a below knee amputation, the thing I've been told to have but the thing I can't take on.

That episode really freaked me out, I don't know what else I can do to protect myself. I've been going to a private podiatrist every 8 weeks but as yet no date for the high risk foot clinic. It was such a safety net and my best chance of keeping my leg. I know there are so many diagnostic tests, clinics and operations not taking place with far worse implications than my leg but it really knocked me off my 'I can manage this' perch and combined with all the other uncertainties I've really not felt my normal relatively optimistic self.

Thank you for all the lovely messages asking if I'm alright, they've been so kind 🙂 I'm trying to get myself back to somewhere a bit more me and a bit less preoccupied with what might happen.

 

[grovesy]

Sorry to hear you are going through this. Take care.

 

[Inka]

A big hug for you @Flower XX

That must all be so hard and so stressful.

 

[everydayupsanddowns]

So sorry to hear what a tough time you have been having @Flower

It is completely natural that you feel the way you do. And you have been fighting these things for so long. The current situation has been tough and very unsettling for lots of people - and I can see how scary it must be to have the interruptions to appointment timings.

I am so glad you were able to get your ‘nick of time’ appointment, and that you are getting regular follow-ups.

You are such a tough cookie, and an inspiration. I really hope you get your bounce back soon, and we are hear for you in the meantime.

Be kind to yourself (((hugs)))

 

[Stitch147]

Sorry to hear that you're struggling Flower. X

 

[Lucy Honeychurch]

Sending you a big (((hug))) x

 

[trophywench]

@Flower - {{{Hugs}}} It's been a bit hard for even the toughest cookies amongst us, even without diabetes or any other health concerns.

I'm now going to tell you something else - in a parallel world on another diabetes forum, we've recently heard of a longstanding T1 precise details don't matter but he landed up having to have a below knee amputation when he wasn't expecting to at all and hence was utterly unprepared for in any way.

Since then he has had EXCELLENT physio and and is just being referred for a false limb, to Stoke Mandeville! So - the NHS is absolutely not dead yet, it is still doing a lot more than merely breathing hence don't give up on it, tell yourself you'll be buggered if you're going to let all this 'c**p' get the better of you and weather it out, to damn well spite rotten Covid-19!

It's ALL of our enemy and we're absolutely all with you!

 

[eggyg]

Sorry to hear this @Flower you have more “issues” than most but always seem to cope admirably, but as you say this damn pandemic has just buggered up everything. Glad they caught your ulcer in time and I’m certain that you will rise to the challenge whatever life throws at you. Keep posting and let us know how things go. 🙂

 

[Eddy Edson]

So sorry to hear this @Flower ! Wishing you every good thing and big {{ HUGS }}

 

[Robin]

Just (((hugs))) @Flower .

 

[Flower]

Thanks everyone 🙂 new week, new outlook- I hope!

 

[everydayupsanddowns]

Thanks everyone 🙂 new week, new outlook- I hope!

Hope it goes well @Flower, and things begin to brighten for you and feel a bit more settled.

Thinking of you

 

[SB2015]

So glad that you were able to get that appointment, and have access to a podiatrist.

You are such an inspiration with all that you deal with.
It is a difficult time and made so much harder when important appointments are not available.

((((((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))) from me too.

I hoe that you have a better week.

 

[Ditto]

Keep going @Flower {{{hugs}}}

 

[silentsquirrel]

Thinking of you, @Flower , hope you manage to maintain today's more positive outlook.

 

[KARNAK]

Hello @Flower same old problem postcode lottery, I get my Podiatry appointments
as usual every six weeks if you lived closer you could have mine. Are you getting
about reasonably well but not over doing it? not surprised you feel out of sorts, what
with your own health problems and this manic virus about no wonder.

We`re here for you as already stated so don`t be alone lots of {{{HUGS}}} take care. xxx

 

[grovesy]

Hello @Flower same old problem postcode lottery, I get my Podiatry appointments
as usual every six weeks if you lived closer you could have mine. Are you getting
about reasonably well but not over doing it? not surprised you feel out of sorts, what
with your own health problems and this manic virus about no wonder.

We`re here for you as already stated so don`t be alone lots of {{{HUGS}}} take care. xxx

I believe it is the Speicalist High Risk foot appointments that are not happening.

 

[trophywench]

I'm absolutely sick of hearing about what services we can't get.

 

[Pumper_Sue]

Sending you hugs Flower. (((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))

 

[grovesy]

I'm absolutely sick of hearing about what services we can't get.

The thing is the services that are not back is varying as usall with all things health.