Northerner
Admin (Retired)
- Relationship to Diabetes
- Type 1
I've been feeling a bit weary over the past few days. I think it has finally hit me, after 9 months, that I've got to deal with this every day for the rest of my life, so it's one of those self-pitying, 'why me?' moments.
My control has been on the 'hypo' side of good for quite a few days, and it seems that although I'm decreasing my insulin I'm not doing it quite enough - I guess for whatever reason my ratios have changed. Is there such a thing as a 'second honeymoon' with diabetes? Maybe some beta cells have been resurrected? The hypos have left me feeling drained and headachy all the time.
I've also realised that I feel bad whenever I get a reading above my range, however small - my highest reading over the past month has been 9.6, which was a bedtime reading and hardly disastrous - I read so many messages here about people having so much difficulty getting below 10, and I really feel for those people.
I think this is all a bit of a delayed reaction. When I was diagnosed I wasn't shocked or upset - if anything, I was relieved that it was something that could be treated, and quickly as I went from feeling dreadfully ill to feeling great in 24 hours. Now, I guess it's finally dawning on me what it means to have a chronic illness.
Sorry, I just wanted to bleat on for a little while and feel sorry for myself, I'm sure I'll get over it!
My control has been on the 'hypo' side of good for quite a few days, and it seems that although I'm decreasing my insulin I'm not doing it quite enough - I guess for whatever reason my ratios have changed. Is there such a thing as a 'second honeymoon' with diabetes? Maybe some beta cells have been resurrected? The hypos have left me feeling drained and headachy all the time.
I've also realised that I feel bad whenever I get a reading above my range, however small - my highest reading over the past month has been 9.6, which was a bedtime reading and hardly disastrous - I read so many messages here about people having so much difficulty getting below 10, and I really feel for those people.
I think this is all a bit of a delayed reaction. When I was diagnosed I wasn't shocked or upset - if anything, I was relieved that it was something that could be treated, and quickly as I went from feeling dreadfully ill to feeling great in 24 hours. Now, I guess it's finally dawning on me what it means to have a chronic illness.
Sorry, I just wanted to bleat on for a little while and feel sorry for myself, I'm sure I'll get over it!