Hello to both of you. I was just the same, never went near the doctor until last September, now never seem to be away. Cat1964 I am sending you a virtual hug (). I understand entirely, it is there 24/7. I felt so ignorant and alone until I found this forum where people have been fantastic. I read somewhere about rationing your "thinking and learning about diabetes time" each day. So now I spend an hour looking here and reading up my books and planning meals etc. after that I try to forget about it and take as little notice as possible. Really good to hear that you are being well cared for. Northerner is a star, always kind and helpful. It will get better. I am ok about it now that I have accepted it and know that it won't go away. Of course I miss things that I enjoyed such as unlimited fruit, potato crisps etc, I am now just concentrating on staying as well as possible and staying off medication for as long as possible. As a needle phobic I cannot bear the though of insulin injections. Pricking my fingers is harrowing enough for me LOL. Go well 🙂