i think ive done a stupid thing
I got up this morning feeling down and was considering texting my tutor on the course that i would not be in this afternoon anyway i didnt and i went in and i feld realy dowm tom the point i was nearly in tears i felt overwelmed
and claustrobic (my coping mecanisum) wasent working and i told him at the break i needed to go home as i couldnt take it in. hoping that that would be that it wasent he came after me to see what was wrong, is there something i wanted to talk about and if i was coming back to the course? me trying to hold myself together said that there wasent anything to talk about and i dont know about going back to the course( i just couldnt get my brain to work and i know it wasent a hypo).
Dont know what to do now as i feel that ive let everyone down and dont know how to walk back into the course again after this eposode on top of the tablets im taking i kinda dont want to add anti depressents to cope with my downer days. felt very bad during the course felt very bad now after the tutor came after me kinda added embarresment to my list wish i could have just slipped out. sorry for my spelling
I got up this morning feeling down and was considering texting my tutor on the course that i would not be in this afternoon anyway i didnt and i went in and i feld realy dowm tom the point i was nearly in tears i felt overwelmed
and claustrobic (my coping mecanisum) wasent working and i told him at the break i needed to go home as i couldnt take it in. hoping that that would be that it wasent he came after me to see what was wrong, is there something i wanted to talk about and if i was coming back to the course? me trying to hold myself together said that there wasent anything to talk about and i dont know about going back to the course( i just couldnt get my brain to work and i know it wasent a hypo).
Dont know what to do now as i feel that ive let everyone down and dont know how to walk back into the course again after this eposode on top of the tablets im taking i kinda dont want to add anti depressents to cope with my downer days. felt very bad during the course felt very bad now after the tutor came after me kinda added embarresment to my list wish i could have just slipped out. sorry for my spelling