Down in the dumps

[Steff]

Too many highs at the minute been so complacent as well, skipping my injections and being a silly mare.Still trying to behave with food,only thing im doing right is at the minute,stopped my anti ds as well gave me horrible side effects,pains in the back of my head have been bugging me as well,but I know its down to me,cant bide ringing the MIL as she is off on her hols next week and dont wanna spoil it,so next best place for support is here xxx

I'm not after any lectures as I know its me, but the old addage when your down you dont look after yourself as well certainly rings true with me at the minute..

This is not a dig at anyone but I sometimes fell like the worlds on my shoulders and no ones there for me, certainly in this house im a ghost.

 

[Northerner]

Very sorry to hear you are feeling so down Steff Is it anything in particular, or are you just feeling weighed down with everything? Please make sure you take your medication, I hope that things brighten up for you soon. Isn't your Dad due to visit soon? That usually cheers you up 🙂 Take care my dear.

 

[Steff]

lonelieness at the moment Alan,just cant get much support.Mother in law is down in Dorset.
I try and take my medication its like one day i do next i dont,Im just so false happy go lucky Steff when really im slowly dying inside,its been going on for ages,covering things up acting like nothings wrong then bang,at the moment I dont even want my dad here its just another pressure in my eyes..I want to get away but money is tight so need to think of some plans to help x

 

[Blythespirit]

Just popped on for a nose whilst sorting the bank out and saw this.

Sorry you're feeling down at the moment Steff. I understand what you mean, one of the downsides of the dreaded D. I must admit that not taking my meds is something I've never done or really thought of doing but I know what it's like to neglect myself in other ways and to have high levels no matter what I do.

When I'm feeling down, feeling unwanted and invisible is the first thing that happens. I convince myself that no one understands, no one wants or likes me and that no one cares if I'm well or coping. I feel used and taken for granted. Been feeling a bit like that the last few months and it was what prompted me to join here in the first place.

Look to your many friends on here to prop you up til you feel a bit better and your own strength will do the rest. You'll be the chatty, helpful and supportive Steff we all know and love soon. Keep your chin up and take care of yourself. You know what you need to do. Hugs. XXXXX

 

[SusieGriff]

Awww Steff! big hugs from me.... I've been in my own gloom today too, with no apparent reason. BUT.. I do not stop taking my meds. so, please think of yourself and take your meds, if they're having nasty side effects go see your doc and try something different. Hope you feel a little better soon sweetie. (((((hug)))))

 

[Hazel]

Steff - just a quick note to say I am thinking of you

Despression is awful, as I speak from experience

Chin up honey - better days are ahead - take care

 

[hyper-Suze]

Hi Steff,

Sorry to hear your feeling blue...

I have been in a position where I refused to take my meds and I understand how you are feeling and where you are coming from. It is so easy for those who don't walk in our shoes to say they understand or to give advice. I finally feel that I have reached the top of the emotions pyramid that the professionals believe we experience, grief, anger, denial etc. I have finally reached acceptance. But my point is by not taking your meds will make you feel even worse, even more down and harder to pull yourself out of.

I really don't quite know what to suggest for you, there is no miracle cure or way of switching off the illness for even a day. Maybe if you can find something that normally cheers you up, make you feel better, laugh and surround yourself in it. Maybe having a big big cry would help, it helps me to release all my frustration by becoming a blubbering fool.

I really hope you are able to pick things up, do carry on with your meds, your such an inspiration and motivator to others on here and can't wait to see the old Steff back on here comforting others in their hour of need....

you'll always have the support of us lot on here, we may not all be local and able to pop in for a coffee to help you through this but we are here nontheless and all have something in common....🙂

 

[Steff]

Thanks everyone, off for an early night x

 

[Northerner]

Thanks everyone, off for an early night x

Sleep well Steff, hope the sun is shining for you in the morning 🙂

 

[shirl]

Steff babe,

sorry your not ur usual 'self' sending you much love, take care of yourself you know how to get in touch when your ready am here for you,

Sleep well my love,

Shirl x

 

[spiritfree]

Sleep well Steff. I hope you feel brighter tomorrow.

 

[PaulsMum]

Its even harder to smile, when your thinking 'God I'm never happy anymore'

But from experience you control your emotions and your diabetes, you just need to keep fighting. Positive mental attitude xx

 

[rachelha]

Big hugs Steff, I hope you get a good nights sleep and things seem a bit brighter tomorrow.

 

[veganlass]

Steff you are a great support here, so you are not alone.

Get out for the day somewhere, like I do if I am down. I am fortunate as, although live on my own, I not only have friends nearby but I have my two lovely rescued dogs and just taking them out and meeting up with doggy friends on walks, lifts my spirit.

 

[Caroline]

Hi Steff, I hope you are feeling better this morning. I find it hard when I allow myself to think there is no one there to support me, but we are all here and we all try and help each other.

 

[Dizzydi]

Too many highs at the minute been so complacent as well, skipping my injections and being a silly mare.Still trying to behave with food,only thing im doing right is at the minute,stopped my anti ds as well gave me horrible side effects,pains in the back of my head have been bugging me as well,but I know its down to me,cant bide ringing the MIL as she is off on her hols next week and dont wanna spoil it,so next best place for support is here xxx

I'm not after any lectures as I know its me, but the old addage when your down you dont look after yourself as well certainly rings true with me at the minute..

This is not a dig at anyone but I sometimes fell like the worlds on my shoulders and no ones there for me, certainly in this house im a ghost.

Oh misses we love you and will give you all the support you need.

So sorry I'm late posting to you again - it is so hard at times and I can fully understand how your feeling at the moment - I keep having major wobbles at the mo.

But misses chin up boxing gloves on and FIGHT...... I'm right behind you, text me whenever you like or I can give you a bell anytime for a good old chin wag xxx

 

[donnarob]

Steff, You're usually like a breath of fresh air and have given so many of us such wonderful support. Now it's our turn to support you in whichever way we can. Depression gets to us all from time to time, but do try and continue taking your meds because that's so important.

Hopfully, you'll be feeling a bit brighter this morning, keep your pecker up.

Lots of love,
Donna x🙂

 

[caroleann]

Hi Steffie i hope you are feeling a bit brighter this morning,sorry im a bit late posting but please dont feel your alone we are all here for you,how about you take your self off for some good old fashioned retail therapy treat your self.
carole

 

[AJLang]

Hi Steff I hope that you're are beginning to feel better this morning. Having just gone through several months of feeling down because of my eyes I know how hopeless it can feel when things are difficult and you feel lonely BUT do keep fighting, things will feel better.....I'm saying this from experience because I only started feeling my depression starting to lift over the weekend but I woke up on Monday and although there are still problems I felt that I could deal with them and it has been wonderful that I am now on day 4 of being able to cope with things.......and you will too although it may take time. Take care and big hugs

 

[margie]

Steffie - I hope that you are feeling better today.

Could you go and see your Dr - ask about whether you could try branded rather than generic tablets. I know generics are cheaper but they vary in content - the additives can be different. I have a relative who can only take certain branded items - the generics make her ill. Or maybe there are some alternates you could try.

Although at the moment you do not relish your Dad's visit - you were feeling down before his last trip and it seemed to go OK. Having him about might actually help lift your mood though right now you probably think it will be stressful.

Look after yourself - why not indulge in some of your Lush products, and don't worry about ranting.