Hello, I’m really struggling and as the title says I don’t think I can live with this anymore. Not only do I have type 1 but I experienced 18 years of abuse as a child and as soon as I escaped I got diagnosed with diabetes (shows life never gets better). I don’t get any support with my mental health, despite trying for 6 years, the nhs are terrible. If that wasn’t bad enough diabetes encourages self harm because if my bloods are high I see that as a failure and that I need to punish myself in some way. It’s given me an eating disorder because I want to stay in range so in order to do that I don’t want to eat, also I know it’ll trigger a meltdown. Diabetes team won’t help with ratios either so I’m injecting up to 15 times a day and the insulin acts like water, I’m scared that this alongside untreated mental health is going to cost my life, I’m scared of what I will do during a meltdown. The NHS have let me down in every single aspect of my health and I’m fed up fighting, sorry but I needed a rant, does anyone else hate this illness as much as I do? I honestly can’t see life ever getting better because of the fact that I will have this forever alongside mental health problems which will never be treated because the nhs hate me. How do people live with this?? Like they told me 6 years ago when I was diagnosed that this would get easier but it’s not, it’s getting worse everyday and nobody cares