Sorry, this is a bit of a rant - I tried to talk to hubby about this earlier today but he really just doesn't get why I'm so upset... he's suggested lots of 'solutions' but I just need to let off steam to someone sympathetic please!!
I had to pop along to the docs surgery today to drop in (yet another) repeat prescription (grumpy kids in tow!)... having recently changed on to a pump I'd been in the other day to check my repeat prescription list items & quantities... when I saw the nurse at that appt, by the time I left she'd made me feel like a one woman drain on the nhs, made me argue my case strongly for a quite measly allowance of test strips per month (misinformed me that if I ran out I could just call up for a repeat; not true, I checked & will have to drag self -& so kids- in every time, they can refuse to issue if they think I'm being excessive!) she talked like she suspected I randomly seize people & test their BGs (never do btw, but "obviously" that 'must' be where all those test stips go!! 😉), had spent half the appt muttering darkly about the "PCT", budgets and prescription audits... and then capped it all off by asking how I was feeling about my diabetes... felt like saying "since speaking to you today, ******* great of course!: 😡
Anyway when I popped back in, silly moo that I am (& bearing in mind this baggage is the practice diabetes 'specialist' nurse for heaven's sake!!) I mentioned that I had had a little difficulty with the nurse understanding why I needed to test so much and asked whether it would be helpful if I photocopied some pages from my DAFNE / pump training booklets which listed when you should test, as obviously I wouldn't expect her to just take my word for it (honestly, I wasn't being sarcastic lol!)... (What was I thinking?! mad mummy moment obviously). Got a bit of a lecture from the receptionist about how the nurse "knows everything about diabetes" (when she clearly was totally ignorant of pump therapy, querying why I'd need ketostix etc!), apparently it would be no good speaking to the docs to increase prescription quantities etc as they would just ask that nurse anyway (due to her alleged expertise!), and when I tried to explain that I thought there had been a misunderstanding because Type 1's are normally seen at the hospital so she mainly sees T2s, probably most of which are not on insulin (or they'd be under the hospitals care), I got a lecture as to how there are many types of diabetes, she (the receptionist!) knew all about it as she'd done some research on the internet when she thought her partner had it! (Wow - another 'expert' in the practice, how lucky are we!!!).
Anyway, the whole thing has for some silly reason really upset me - normally I'm really positive about my diabetes, don't let it get in the way of me doing most things, etc etc... now I just feel like I'm looked on like a waste of money, they don't care if I don't test because the lasering / dialysis etc costs for treatment for complications don't come out of their budgets! I honestly feel like they are making an assessment of what my life is worth & it's really got me down. Sorry, I know that's a bit negative, but I'm so upset by all this - hubby thinks I'm totally overreacting (he's probably right) but it was horrible.
Sorry, rant over.
I had to pop along to the docs surgery today to drop in (yet another) repeat prescription (grumpy kids in tow!)... having recently changed on to a pump I'd been in the other day to check my repeat prescription list items & quantities... when I saw the nurse at that appt, by the time I left she'd made me feel like a one woman drain on the nhs, made me argue my case strongly for a quite measly allowance of test strips per month (misinformed me that if I ran out I could just call up for a repeat; not true, I checked & will have to drag self -& so kids- in every time, they can refuse to issue if they think I'm being excessive!) she talked like she suspected I randomly seize people & test their BGs (never do btw, but "obviously" that 'must' be where all those test stips go!! 😉), had spent half the appt muttering darkly about the "PCT", budgets and prescription audits... and then capped it all off by asking how I was feeling about my diabetes... felt like saying "since speaking to you today, ******* great of course!: 😡
Anyway when I popped back in, silly moo that I am (& bearing in mind this baggage is the practice diabetes 'specialist' nurse for heaven's sake!!) I mentioned that I had had a little difficulty with the nurse understanding why I needed to test so much and asked whether it would be helpful if I photocopied some pages from my DAFNE / pump training booklets which listed when you should test, as obviously I wouldn't expect her to just take my word for it (honestly, I wasn't being sarcastic lol!)... (What was I thinking?! mad mummy moment obviously). Got a bit of a lecture from the receptionist about how the nurse "knows everything about diabetes" (when she clearly was totally ignorant of pump therapy, querying why I'd need ketostix etc!), apparently it would be no good speaking to the docs to increase prescription quantities etc as they would just ask that nurse anyway (due to her alleged expertise!), and when I tried to explain that I thought there had been a misunderstanding because Type 1's are normally seen at the hospital so she mainly sees T2s, probably most of which are not on insulin (or they'd be under the hospitals care), I got a lecture as to how there are many types of diabetes, she (the receptionist!) knew all about it as she'd done some research on the internet when she thought her partner had it! (Wow - another 'expert' in the practice, how lucky are we!!!).
Anyway, the whole thing has for some silly reason really upset me - normally I'm really positive about my diabetes, don't let it get in the way of me doing most things, etc etc... now I just feel like I'm looked on like a waste of money, they don't care if I don't test because the lasering / dialysis etc costs for treatment for complications don't come out of their budgets! I honestly feel like they are making an assessment of what my life is worth & it's really got me down. Sorry, I know that's a bit negative, but I'm so upset by all this - hubby thinks I'm totally overreacting (he's probably right) but it was horrible.
Sorry, rant over.