Depressed and Fed Up of the Hospital

[Ivy]

I feel like every time I get a vomiting bug or something other people would recover from in their own time, I get so dehydrated and end up in the hospital. I know it doesn't help that I have abused my body for the past 7 years (eating disorder) but even now my diabetes is under good control (last Hba1c 8.2%) I can just never seem to get over illness by myself. I end up like a pin cushion from the all the drips and missing work.
Earlier in the year I was hospitalised for days, vomiting with a water infection that wouldn't clear up. I was admitted 3 times in one week at the start of the month for a vomiting bug I caught from work. I ended up at A&E yesterday, on Monday night I took 6 laxatives (I know I'm an idiot but that amount would never normally make me that ill). Threw up all of Monday night and Tuesday daytime. It's got me thinking that if I ever got pregnant I'd probably spent the most of the pregnancy in hospital. =/ I feel like even if I fully got over the eating disorder my body is permanently weakened and I'll never lead a normal life.

Sorry for the whinge.

 

[Caroline]

It helps to have a whinge and we will all listen. I hope it helped you.

Do you have anyone who could give you moral support or who'd spend time doing things with you that you'd both enjoy?

 

[Northerner]

Hi Ivy, sorry to hear you are feeling so down - no need to apologise for having a good whinge about it!

Are you getting help with your eating disorder? Unfortunately, I think that whenever we get an illness of any kind we tend to suffer that much more than non-diabetics, even if we have pretty much spot-on control. Plus, how you feel personally about your illnesses can vary from individual to individual, so try not to compare how you feel with others - it's how YOU feel that is important for you. When we have an illness or infection then this will raise your blood sugars, as you probably know, and higher levels mean swinging moods, so it's important to try and match those rises by increasing insulin when necessary - it would be worth discussing 'sick day rules' with your DSN to make sure you understand what to do.

It's very important to do what you can to keep yourself as strong and healthy as you can be when you are not ill so that you will be better able to brush off the minor illnesses and deal better with the more stubborn ones. Have you been in touch with the people at DWED ( http://www.dwed.org.uk/ )? They are lovely people and it can really help to know that it's not just you who goes through this, and more importantly, that you can do things to help, or find help in the right places. 🙂

Take care, I hope things improve for you 🙂

 

[Ivy]

Thanks for the fast replies! I think I'm just feeling pretty down cause I'm still feeling a bit ill. Northerner, I see a psychologist for my ED but really I know the only person who can help me is myself.

 

[Ivy]

It helps to have a whinge and we will all listen. I hope it helped you.

Do you have anyone who could give you moral support or who'd spend time doing things with you that you'd both enjoy?

Oh and for moral support I have an amazing friend I met on an eating disorders forum. We speak every day and meet up a few times a year but unfortunately she lives on the other side of the country.

 

[Caroline]

Oh and for moral support I have an amazing friend I met on an eating disorders forum. We speak every day and meet up a few times a year but unfortunately she lives on the other side of the country.

The main thing is you have a friend. My friend who I turn to for moral support lives as far across London as you can get and still be in greater London. We are emailing all day...