Admiral Benbow
Well-Known Member
- Relationship to Diabetes
- At risk of diabetes
One thing I like about this forum, is people are so open and willing to discuss difficult topics like declining health. We all know death is inevitable and it is 100% certain it will happen to us.
I first encountered this forum last february after my blood test revealed high fasting glucose at around the diabetic range 130, and high trigs 210 and high bp 150/83. Since then I've been trying to optimize my health, changing my diet, and doing more blood tests.
However, the odd thing is no matter how much testing I do, or see improvements like all my biomarkers and A1C's being now optimal (4.8,5.1) I still have anxiety about disease progression and dying painfully. This could partly be because of my last two fasting glucose tests being 134, 128 mg/DL and I'm not sure why they are high if all other biomarkers are optimal. However I think it goes deeper than that, I think it is because the more I read, and the more videos of health I watch, the more I know there are many bad things out there that can kill me. In other words, the fragility of life is more real now.
I don't fear death in itself per se, as I strongly believe in the afterlife, but I fear the dying process. Things like 5 years on dialysis at the end of life, blindness, neuropathy, retinopathy, amputation, parkinsons, alzheimers, cancer etc, and how to pay for it, and how it will affect my spouse and family. I fear dying with a disease on the street, in the snow, cold and alone.
Dr. Attia says the four horsemen of chronic disease are: 1. atherosclerotic disease 2. cancer 3. neurodegenerative disease 4.metabolic disease
I know if I live long enough one of these will get me unless I die tragically or am a victim of homicide. So I guess my question is, knowing you are dying daily, and knowing you could die horribily from one of the aforementioned diseases, how do you prepare for a 'good death?' For example peacefully dying in your bed from 'natural causes'? How do you prepare for not seeing it coming? As I don't want to see it coming. How do you play the odds? For example, how do you say tonight it's ok to have a couple of pints of beer and travel to Ibiza? I can eat that piece of birthday cake? How do you balance health against other risky behaviour like say skydiving? or cage diving with sharks?
I sometimes wish I didn't have any lipid blood tests because then I wouldn't know I had to fix anything, but I know that is irrational thinking. I know as a guy 42 years old health and safety are important, but to be honest I miss the years of my late teens early 20's where I didn't know about these things and felt invicible and had all the time in the world to do stuff. Am I having subconsciously a mid life crisis or questioning which is adding to my anxiety over health? I wonder.
Let me know your thoughts folks.
I first encountered this forum last february after my blood test revealed high fasting glucose at around the diabetic range 130, and high trigs 210 and high bp 150/83. Since then I've been trying to optimize my health, changing my diet, and doing more blood tests.
However, the odd thing is no matter how much testing I do, or see improvements like all my biomarkers and A1C's being now optimal (4.8,5.1) I still have anxiety about disease progression and dying painfully. This could partly be because of my last two fasting glucose tests being 134, 128 mg/DL and I'm not sure why they are high if all other biomarkers are optimal. However I think it goes deeper than that, I think it is because the more I read, and the more videos of health I watch, the more I know there are many bad things out there that can kill me. In other words, the fragility of life is more real now.
I don't fear death in itself per se, as I strongly believe in the afterlife, but I fear the dying process. Things like 5 years on dialysis at the end of life, blindness, neuropathy, retinopathy, amputation, parkinsons, alzheimers, cancer etc, and how to pay for it, and how it will affect my spouse and family. I fear dying with a disease on the street, in the snow, cold and alone.
Dr. Attia says the four horsemen of chronic disease are: 1. atherosclerotic disease 2. cancer 3. neurodegenerative disease 4.metabolic disease
I know if I live long enough one of these will get me unless I die tragically or am a victim of homicide. So I guess my question is, knowing you are dying daily, and knowing you could die horribily from one of the aforementioned diseases, how do you prepare for a 'good death?' For example peacefully dying in your bed from 'natural causes'? How do you prepare for not seeing it coming? As I don't want to see it coming. How do you play the odds? For example, how do you say tonight it's ok to have a couple of pints of beer and travel to Ibiza? I can eat that piece of birthday cake? How do you balance health against other risky behaviour like say skydiving? or cage diving with sharks?
I sometimes wish I didn't have any lipid blood tests because then I wouldn't know I had to fix anything, but I know that is irrational thinking. I know as a guy 42 years old health and safety are important, but to be honest I miss the years of my late teens early 20's where I didn't know about these things and felt invicible and had all the time in the world to do stuff. Am I having subconsciously a mid life crisis or questioning which is adding to my anxiety over health? I wonder.
Let me know your thoughts folks.