Heard today the eye specialist wants to see me in the city hospital where my care was transferred after a nearer hospital had missed problems in my eye & I'd lost confidence there. Trouble is, between childcare, hubby's being off ill himself & a machiavellian boss, my hubby (my usual chauffeur!) can't take me & obviously I can't drive myself (eye drops!)...I've checked the route out & it works out each way as 3 hours, on three different buses & two trains. Even assuming the clubs at school & nursery could take the kids that still leaves it frantically tight for me doing drop offs & collections etc. Also then the cost ?35 for the day for little'un & around ?10-20 for the older one plus transport which looks like at least ?50 in trains & buses. Basically I'm stuffed, I don't think I can do it! I realise someone will be along in a mo to tell me i'm being a wimp & they walk fifteen miles a day to catch 8 buses to do their job or something but frankly I'm burnt out. I feel like I'm going to end up going blind all because of b***** logistics & finances. All my good friends (the kind you'd ask for help in an emergency) live miles or continents away. I could howl right now. 