Clashann, thank you ever so much for your lovely message.
What happened to you is almost exactly what happened to me. They started to do the scan and there was just a sac, and then they found something 'about the size of a grain of rice' but no heartbeat. We still had to wait 9 VERY LONG days to go back for another to confirm, although I knew really that it was game over. I think if I had miscarried at 6/7 weeks it would have been sad but not the end of the world, I think in the very early days you almost half expect it (one in three etc etc), but to find out at the scan isn't something I'd wish on my worst enemy.
I was then, after a whole day (11am till 7pm) at the hospital convicing them why I didn't want to take tablets and then come in two days later to 'push it out' into a bedpan so they could rummage through it (they said putting me under for all of five mins for a D&C was too high risk as I was diabetic and I might hypo - the tablet option is cheaper more like, but I thought it sounded horrrendous) booked in for a D&C the following Friday (close to three weeks after the first scan.) Instead, on the Wednesday I started to have awful contraction like pains and losing massive amounts of blood, so much so that my mum (whose house I was at at the time) called an ambulance (she's actually a nurse, so not prone to medical over-reactions). I then was admitted overnight and had to have a blood transfusion, a synthetic hormone drip and the several bags of saline IV too. Not an experience I want to repeat!
Sorry to bring down the mood, but it was quite cathartic to write it down. I think I am worried the same scenario might happen again, even though I actually have no reason whatsoever to think it will. I do feel differently this time, but also get paranoid if I don't feel my symptoms are as strong as they were, say, the day before. I realise this is ridiculous but I can't help it!
Anyway, thanks all for reading (if you got this far) and I will keep you all posted!
xx
