1 Year today

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Hello again,

Been a long time since I posted up here. Last time was a month or 2 after I was diagnosed and now it is a year today... this time last year I was sat on a hospital bed, exhausted, waiting to be given my insulin so I could go home!
It's been a difficult year - some amazing times as I went to America for three weeks - but some lows too and I guess what really hit me today was that this is with me. I knew that any way but I think it having been a year has made it all the more poignant and real and that I am going to have to be doing this every day. Makes me feel exhausted as I have to constantly think: Do I have everything? Do I have enough needlesI'll need to order more of *insert one of the many things we need to order here* tomorrow.
It could be worse, I know that and I feel so selfish when I have these days because I have a wonderful life, with great family and friends. But my life was turned upside down and some days I can't be bothered with it all.
My friends were supportive at the beginning but now I feel as though they think that I'm fine and sometimes I'm not. I want to talk about it but don't because they don't know what it's like or I feel that they feel uncomfortable and perhaps don't know what to say. So I avoid it and say nothing. Stupid but I don't know what else to do.
My boyfriend has been amazing. My absolute lighthouse during this time. I've spoken to him a lot and he prompted me to come back on or go and meet with a Diabetes Group I've read about. which I will do. For ease though I thought I'd start with you guys because I feel no matter what I say, you've all been there and will be friendly ears to this tumultuous year.
Much love
CBee xxx
 
Hi CBee! Welcome back 🙂 I think we all have times when things hit home a bit and it can be a bit overwhelming, especially if you don't have anyone around who really gets it. Your boyfriend sounds great, and it's good advice to try and connect with people who understand how it feels - so here we are! 🙂
 
Hear Hear !

Yes. Been there done that etc. It may help to know that these times do get less the longer you go on.

Suggestion aside from getting it off your chest and joining your local group, which are great things to do anyway - have you been offered a place on a carb-counting course yet? (usually not offered in the first 12 months or so)

If not - why not ? LOL Make it your business to go and jolly well ASK to go on one!

Best week anyone can spend, in respect of their D. Honest !

You may not feel being herded up with a roomful of T1s for a week ain't your idea of fun, but actually - it can be great fun! And you do learn one helluva lot too. Plus you get loads of 1 to 1. And the chance to see 'I am not alone' and that everyone really does make mistakes, you can commiserate and congratulate, be commiserated with and congratulated yourself.

Very .... EMPOWERING, I'd say, actually ! :D
 
Total agree with T W. Get yourself on a course or two. You WILL pick something up that you didnt know. It is good to talk 🙂🙂
 
Hi CBee,
i have my second anniversary today 🙂For sure Im doing much better now than one year ago . Diabetes is not that bad once you learn as much as possible about it. I find forums for people with diabetes very useful. To be honest I learned from other fellow diabetics more than from my gp or diabetic clinic. Try to read as much as possible and ask questions (even if they sound silly). They are many diabetics out there who are happy to help and share their knowledge.
All the best. I made a cake for my anniversary 🙂 hope you are having some treat as well😉
 
The first year is hard because there is so much to learn. It does get less of a pain over time. Keep sharing as we have all been there.
Happy diaversery
 
Hi from me too (only a parent)

My lad hit 'the brick wall' 6 months in, had enough of it all, so I can totally understand where you are coming from. He's 2 years post diagnosis now and still struggling, but teenage hormones/rebellion not helping in our situation.

Coming back here is a major step forward though. Such wonderful people with knowledge/sympathy/empathy/practical advice and its just so good to talk to people who really understand. Good on you for seeking more help. That in itself is a really positive step. And keep hold of that boyfriend, he sounds wonderful!

Good luck with it all.

Love Tina xx
 
Thank you for all your lovely responses. I am holding onto the boyf - no way im letting go there lol.
I did go on a carb counting course in May time and it lasted over 4 weeks or so. It was really beneficial but there was no-one there a really clicked with as I guess all we had in common was diabetes, which was great for the course but I was either much younger than them or they'd had if for 10 years or more so I felt at a disadvantage both ways. The closest group I've found is near Greenwich but I keep missing the get togethers because i'm at work late due to meetings. I wondered if anyone knew of a group closer to the Gatwick area?
 
Probably not the best thing to say but "happy" anniversary.

The first year is tough & your bf sounds ace & supportive (well done there)

I'm often worried about one on one or group talking about my diabetes but as the advert used to say "it's good to talk"
 
Hi

Your last year sounds very similar to mine I am 11 days away from my 1st anniversary, and what a roller-coaster it is, I am currently injecting twice a day but its not really working so have an appointment to see the Diabetic Nurses to change to multiple injections and carb counting now that is what I am worried about I am bound to work it out wrong but we will see.

I get very down about getting this horrible condition I just don't want it, why me and all that and the thought that its not going away this is it for life. Its great you have your amazing and supporting boyfriend it is very important to have someone to talk to, I struggle to talk to anyone no one knows what its like and I feel they get fed up with me going on and on.

But I guess we will all be ok because at the end of the day we have to do what needs to be done but we are entitled to feel down and sorry for ourselves its a tough thing to deal with.:(
 
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