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Troubled times

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Steff

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Had my doctors appointment this morning initially started off talking about my insulin and how it was going and then it all came to a head and i opened up to GP about how i am feeling and the dark times i have kept to myself this past 3 weeks, telling everyone im ok when im not and clearly the pills are not working for me, came to a conclusion with her that a psycotherapist is next stage and councelling, I cant pinpoint the reason for this i have this overrriding feeling of burden and uselessness and i cant control those feelings, i have had thoughts of ending it all and even did a video for my son it got that bad I would never ever have been so open about this in the past .
My sister has kindly offered to come over and visit me from Ireland next month and I am hoping that helps me. I cant carry on this way my body is a mess im pulling the hairs from my eyebrows and there a mess, ive got several marks over my legs and 6 to 7 bad boil type things under my arm, all for which ive been givern antibiotics for.
Im hoping this post will give me some comfort and telling you all wont mean you judge me but I was once the strong one on here but now I feel like a person drowning with only her son from stopping her cutting the oxygen supply

Thanks for reading.
Steff x
 
Aw Steff, I'm so sorry to hear you have been feeling so low :( Big {{{HUGS}}} to you, my friend. I think your sister will give you a big boost, mine always does 🙂 We've known each other for a good few years now, and I know how strong a person you are for others, and a sign of your strength is recognising that you need help and support, and admitting how you have been feeling. I really hope that the counselling helps you get back on track and makes you realise all those wonderful qualities you have. I've always known that you have got my back, and you should know that I will always have yours 🙂 Take care, and let us know how things go or if I/we can help in any way.
 
Sorry to hear you are feeling low Steff. Sending you some hugs and hope you feel better soon. XX
 
None of us on here would ever judge you. We are more likely to think, been there, crawled out the other side, and be willing you on to do the same.
 
Had my doctors appointment this morning initially started off talking about my insulin and how it was going and then it all came to a head and i opened up to GP about how i am feeling and the dark times i have kept to myself this past 3 weeks, telling everyone im ok when im not and clearly the pills are not working for me, came to a conclusion with her that a psycotherapist is next stage and councelling, I cant pinpoint the reason for this i have this overrriding feeling of burden and uselessness and i cant control those feelings, i have had thoughts of ending it all and even did a video for my son it got that bad I would never ever have been so open about this in the past .
My sister has kindly offered to come over and visit me from Ireland next month and I am hoping that helps me. I cant carry on this way my body is a mess im pulling the hairs from my eyebrows and there a mess, ive got several marks over my legs and 6 to 7 bad boil type things under my arm, all for which ive been givern antibiotics for.
Im hoping this post will give me some comfort and telling you all wont mean you judge me but I was once the strong one on here but now I feel like a person drowning with only her son from stopping her cutting the oxygen supply

Thanks for reading.
Steff x
Steff I think its very brave & honest of you to talk openly about your feelings here...often any form of emotional distress or mental health issue is rarely spoken about publicly ...that's part of the problem...we should be supporting that...well done for recognising its time for professional help...I hope your referral is done swiftly...thank goodness you will have some family support in the meantime...I agree with Robin...no one here will judge you...they may be able to empathise with you...perhaps they've been there...are still there....I applaud you for speaking out...very courageous...often there is a stigma attached to mental health... lord knows why...we should be encouraging anyone experiencing the same difficulties to speak out too...its a positive step forward...take care of yourself and please keep us in the loop...Barbara.
 
Big (((hugs))) to you @Steff. Very brave of you to be so open and honest, I too hope your referral is dealt with quickly, and I'm willing you through the otherside too, sending you hugs and positive thoughts, take care xxxx
 
I'm sending very best wishes to you Steff and hope you soon get the help needed to improve how you're feeling. No judgements from anyone just love and hugs xx
 
We would never judge you Steff, and you are an asset to this forum. Sending you {{{hugs}}}, and hope the counselling helps. We're here if you need us.
 
Being open is definitely the best option. I have experienced this in my own family (although better not go into details). There is nothing wrong in getting help, in fact it will be your first step in feeling better. A visit from your sister I'm sure will really help but remember we are all here to give you a boost whenever you need it
 
Telling your GP, sister and here us a huge step, @Steff. You've got a good plan there. I'm sure your son (and dog, too?) will help, too.
 
Yes telling people how you feel is so important. Not sure how I can help but let me know if there is anything I can do. Sending all positive vibes your way x x
 
Hi Steffi, I'm a bit new on here but I can sympathise with you. Whenever I have felt down I found walking out in the fresh air helped. Glad you are getting help from your doctor, perhaps you have been strong for too long. Give yourself a break. Here we all are,for you.
 
Hi Steff, the symptoms of pointlessness and hopelessness you describe are classic clinical depression and well done you for confronting them and talking to your doctor about how you're feeling. The idea of counselling is a good one because quite often anti-depressive medication alone isn't always as successful.

There are times we feel generally overwhelmed, anxious all the time and running on empty. There's no shame, no blame but most of us struggle through it losing the joy from our lives when there's help to overturn these dark feelings.

Thanks for sharing and I really hope you can find the help you need because you're obviously a very caring person with compassion. Time for us to give some back to you when you're having a rough time. So many of us will understand exactly how you're feeling hun. Warm best wishes, Amigo x
 
Hi Steff. What's up with my special girl, don't worry you will not drown, I'll be the first to jump in and save you babe and I can't even swim. I'm so sad to hear how your feeling, you have been such a good friend and sport and I have very happy memories of the fun we have shared at the meets. It will be good to have your Sister with you for a while it will cheer you up and I hope things soon start to improve for you. You still have my email addy if you feel the need to get in touch. Take care my friend.
With lots of love and hugs.
John. xxx
 
It is so strong to share your feelings with us, and I am sure no one will judge you. I think you are amazing and hope with the extra support you will feel better soon. I have learnt that all our feelings are understandable and are not to be judged, what we do with them is the hard bit. Sending hugs and all my support.
 
Awwww Steff I am so sorry to read this, although in a way glad you feel you can share something like this with us, that proves you are still pretty strong in a way! I hope you start to feel better soon and you feel more like yourself again!! thoughts are with you and sending BIG HUGS your way!! xx
 
Oh Steff, tears in my eyes when I read your emotional plea and so utterly sorry to learn you find yourself in that black bottomless pit again - I empathise totally and wholeheartedly with you and so glad you found the courage to *open up* & express your feelings to'your GP - and with us for which I thank you. I know this couldn't have been easy for you but you are on the first rung now toward your recovery and to a better place.

There is no shame attached in accepting professional Counselling by any means - it is the right way forward for you to mend and heal yourself - but it will take time so please try to be patient. Your family and especially your son will be the reminder for you to repair yourself - but having said this, there is no pressure upon yourself whatsoever.

Both depression & anxiety is all too common and can frequently drag a person down to unknown depths - dark depths - but together with professional Counselling you WILL overcome your troubles as & when your mind is ready to accept & deal with them, so please dont despair hun. Rome wasn't built in a day.

I'm thinking of you with my arms virtually around your shoulders to comfort you. No judging - no criticism - stay strong & remember Steff, you are not alone - for you are surrounded by supportive friends {{{{{huge hugs}}}}} and xxxx's.
WL
 
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Hi Steff, you have made the bravest step by talking to your GP and sister and to the forum, that takes courage you should be proud of yourself. Hopefully your appointment will be here soon and you will start to feel more like your old self. Please take care of yourself, sending you best wishes x
 
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