I hate my health

[AJLang]

Feeling extremely down. I've tried so hard to get back on track with my studies but my health just hasnt let it happen. All I've managed this week is three hours of studying and no classes and that is after two weeks off. I've just given my OH the withdrawal form so that he scan it so I can email it. I've tried so hard to stay on this course but my health hates me. I now don't know what to do with myself.

 

[Caroline]

I hope you feel better soon AJ. I know where you are coming from with health issues. Along with mine I also had a sick hubby to look after and it was hard work. Hopefully things will improve for you soon, although I know it is hard to be patient and allow it to happen.

 

[AJLang]

Thank you Caroline. I appreciate your comments as I know how much you have been through. Thank you very much. I'm calming down now. It just feels sometimes that in the last five years my health has taken so much from me. But when I'm feeling rational I do appreciate everything that I still have.

 

[Mrs Mad Ronin]

Oh AJ, how i understand this all too well. I have no advice, just lots of love & support. Don't be hard on yourself though x

 

[Lynn Davies]

Oh sweetheart! Not a lot anyone can say really - you have to do what is right for you. Now you have made the decision then you can start to heal yourself. With the pressure removed you can start to look forward to doing 'me' things when you are feeling well enough ((((hugs))))

 

[shirley]

Was so sorry to read this post. It is not fair when you so want to achieve things and everything conspires against you. I wish you well and hope that some of the messages you read here might give you a little comfort.

 

[AJLang]

Thank you everyone. Your messages have helped a lot. Now that I've calmed down I feel better. I know that I definitely Tried my best to carry on studying. Now I will embrace the life that I have.

 

[Stitch147]

Hi AJ, now you will have the extra time to look after yourself, maybe once your health is better and on track, you can do something else. Make the most of the life you have. XX

 

[Amigo]

I so understand your situation Amanda. Sometimes the spirit is willing but the body is weak and we need up hating ourselves for having to admit defeat! My ambitions have been thwarted to some extent by illness and I bloody hate it but there comes a point where you have to take stock, look at your limitations realistically and re-think, 'what next?'
With a good brain and a soft heart there's always something else you'll be able to turn your hand to that won't compromise your own health.

Wishing you well in finding your new reality x

 

[AJLang]

Thanks Stitch that's my plan xx I'm fortunate that I have good friends and my Guide Dog volunteering to do. Plus lots of other interests to do as and when I can.

 

[AJLang]

I so understand your situation Amanda. Sometimes the spirit is willing but the body is weak and we need up hating ourselves for having to admit defeat! My ambitions have been thwarted to some extent by illness and I bloody hate it but there comes a point where you have to take stock, look at your limitations realistically and re-think, 'what next?'
With a good brain and a soft heart there's always something else you'll be able to turn your hand to that won't compromise your own health.

Wishing you well in finding your new reality x

Amigo you have got it exactly right. I just so sorry that you have to deal with what you have as well x

 

[KateR]

I so understand where you are coming from too. It is SO frustrating not being able to do what you could once do. Sending lots of ((((hugs)))).

 

[Carolg]

Lots of (((hugs))).be kind to yourself.

 

[AJLang]

Thank you Kate and Carol. I also got some more bad news today which I will post about separately. Anyhow I'm going to chill and enjoy all of the good things that I've got and learn to relax more xx